petrified of furniture

the un successful hunt for true furniture has started...so we just bought this 1906 victorian home, and part of us wants to make that authentic in design ,but then there is that longing for cushy comfort you can only find in overstuffed ugliness.but contradicting the two logical paths to furnishing is our love of history and culture. i have serched everything from morroccan couches to gypsy stuf .I have ran across coffin furniture and grow your own sod furniture(which I think is worth anyone serching out jut for giggles) but this long ship hammock was one of the best yet...then people would just know we are norse , now, wouldnt they. so How is christmas like furniture....you are trying to find something that doesnt fit your heart in it, but you are finding stuf that doesnt have anything to do with it, and all your soal wants is to find your herratige, your inheritance from the father heart of God,his son Jesus...but that just wouldnt be cooshy and comfortable enough...so you just keep on serching.its so simple....so what if your nieghbors look at the stable and cross in your life and think you have strang taste in furniture....you have life in you....pass it on....and youll know what christmas was all about...furniture is all about wood,christ was born and laid in wood,simple wood,he grew up with his hands in wood, making furniture everyday,and he died with his hands in wood, and now he trys to penitrate your hearts , but they are stone...even wood turns to stone eventualy,it petrifys....so why are you all so petrified,be the wood,open your hearts,accept that being a christian does make you stand out....show some growth this holiday season....show one person what christ has carved from your heart, and propose what he could do with thiers.if only shopping for furniture was as easy as knowing my savior.

so driving a 24 foot truck over huge bridges and around tight curves at night with two kids in tow is not my cup of tea. i need A hot tub ,massage,phyciatrist and chiropracter after this trip. thank God, and i mean the one and only for actually ariving here.on better notes we can unload all our earthly treasures friday morning.we actualy own the big blue house now....owning a home hopefully is better then buying one.well i could use a nap...so over and out,,,bzzzzzzzzzzzz

sometimes it takes two people with one wing to fly. working together on things is my familys stuggle.we have so much to do right now and although sometimes itworks do divvy up the tasks, othertimes it takes quite a bit of team work.going back to an old joke, how many pollocks does it take to screw in a lightbulb? well the answer was always more then one....but did you ever consider that it makes a task harder by far to do it with others. yesterday marsh and tristan were stuggling to carve a pumpkin together,and me and marsh always struggle to agree on bills and driving. but lately my stuggle has been alowing myself to let others help, and trusting it will be ok if I am not in charge. marsh has said this month I have been a control freak...i have replyed that it is because I feel my whole life is out of my hands...all this moving stuf and trusting others. sometimes you just have to realize there is no way to eat everything on your plate ,let someone share the task .right now I have more on my plate then I do family members...so thats when you need to trust God behond your own wings.

home we hope

here is the house we are buying, it will be keeping our monthly payment the same as renting ,but we need lots of prayre that it will all close ok.though I have been aprehensive about moving to idaho, i do like the idea of my kids playing in a yard not a parkinglot,and hey it will be ours...and that is cool,I can buy neat stuf that wont get broken moving 6 months from now...and I can paint the walls red and take walls down or put in a pool, i can have my gardens how I have always wanted....we will finnaly have storrage space yes! so is it true,can a girl like me learn to be content anywhere? we'll see when the deal go's through.

my children exsploring

on the brink of moving to idaho,we are here looking at houses,we just spent a few days at the beach,i could see my kids enjoy the tidepools.i want my kids to have that since of wonder,there is just something mysterious about the sea. the photo is of a mermaid at weeky watchee park,as an adult you know its just a tailed swim suit....but as a child its magic....i dont want to wait till the magic of the sea is gone in thier eyes to share itwith them. i was looking forward to raising them in my bakery,teaching them a family buisiness,working side by side....but now i need to follow...i geuss like she follows the light. look what the little mermaid did for love. can i make thier lives as magical here? can i learn from paul to be content in anything i do? can i fall in love with this place,a home here? time will tell. till then i feel alone in the sea.

we are what we eat

so this picture is so cute right? or is this a really sick way to promote people to be vegitarians? You know I once was a vegitarian,2 and a half years actualy...I ate all the right protiens and stuf and now I have serious thyroid problems from taking in too much soy....which is not truthfully a perfect food.(either are bugs,see previous post) so in keeping todays post short and sweet...I will inspire you by saying this....some of our great decisions that we do for all the right reasons turn out to be the worst decisions we ever made. and on the other hand(not the one holding the hot dog obviously) some of the worst are the best,like our kids...few people have perfectly timed kids,but our children make us just as much as we look like our dog and we are what we eat.

the insain bin has taken over my life

my insain bin on my desk has become an overfilled mess,along with every other part of my life that is more swamped the loisiana.life is crazy, and trying to move is crazy, and having a family(especialy if it involves a man) is crazy...but the craziness is what makes it all worth wile, right? thats when we have to look back to the instruction book...I have the bible....somepeople claim its old fashioned and doesnt apply to real life...but they have never read the message translation of probvebs. we have 31 days in the longest month and it has 31 chapters...a short way to let God organize your caos for you.....so you may think this is push religion,but I am not even telling anyone to belive....just challenging you to try out the one book,for one month in modern writing,double dog dare you. prople fear change,they fear religion,they fear not being in full control. has anyone else read about the nude rollerblader in portland...I guess some woman rollerblades nude,so they said cover up the genitals so now she rollerblades in a g-string....they even commented on how people werent mad ,just scaired for her safty,how sweet! but why does she go against the grain,why does she do it? to attract attention ,or to feel free in the wind,to tan eavenly? life is caos but is caos a bad thing? what scares you most? maybe you need to exsplore that fear.....and what do you stand against? maybe you need to reserch it and try out the others shoes. back to the bible....my instructionbook to life....it doesnt make me clean my desk or skate fully clothed or even go to church ....it cant make me do anything....in life we are given much advise....sometimes even good advise from crappy sourses. so even if you are against religion,there may be one quote that will lift you out of a hard time....I can say this because I am a collector of quotes...and I have found great ones from confucios,and budda....but I still worship jesus....do ya get it? heres a bit of probverbs 27 in the messege form....take it in and stop judging poeple on their religion,learn from one another.

5 A spoken reprimand is better than approval that's never expressed. 6 The wounds from a lover are worth it; kisses from an enemy do you in. 7 When you've stuffed yourself, you refuse dessert; when you're starved, you could eat a horse. 8 People who won't settle down, wandering hither and yon, are like restless birds, flitting to and fro. 9 Just as lotions and fragrance give sensual delight, a sweet friendship refreshes the soul. 10 Don't leave your friends or your parents' friends and run home to your family when things get rough;Better a nearby friend than a distant family. 11 Become wise, dear child, and make me happy; then nothing the world throws my way will upset me.

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yum,just went out for mexican with a friend for a buy one get one free meal,I swear there was a bug in my tamalli,again yum....but the question here is really ,why dont americans eat bugs? I mean when I searched for images of eating bugs I didnt get the acedental bug in your food kinda pics, I got only pics of open air markets selling buckets of yummy bugs(and this wonderful snapshot of corse) so again I should be grateful,and I tryed, I gently pushed it aside checked for more and ate the rest of my wonderfull food...who cares if I did digest a anteni or leg...some starving kid wouldve faught me for that carcus I wasted. but I didnt close down someones reasterant so I guess I am still a good person...and who knows if it wouldve been so juicy and yellow like these I may have asked for seconds....so let me inspire you to try something new today.....speaking of bugs there was a small locust on my ceiling this morning,I put it in a jar to amaize my son,children always like bugs better then adults(hence age of photod child above) I wonder if it wouldve been kinder to eat the locust. there are so many things in our world that people consider wrong that neighbors to us consider right. so I ponder on that...how do we need to react to true diversity(hence again action in pic above) do we share a quick fakeing smile,do we honestly vommit...or do we acept the differnce like simba did in the lion king and simply say"hmmm...slimmy but satisfying"

moscow in winter

How does a person gear themself up for snow again when they just got used to wearing a bathingsuit (despite their less then perfect figure) all year long. ok so I will have to invest in a furry tall hat like I am genuinely going to moscow russia,and I will be out making snow look like porposes and sea shells and boats.....wow the town freak of yet another new town. either way this is a pic of a wet day in moscow idaho, please feel free to compair to a wet day in portland oregon....so maybe it will seem the same.but the idea has yet to lift my spirits. marsh told me to have faith today...I am normally the one saying that....I have lived many years on faith alone....so I am going to have faith that about 3000 dollers will fall out of the sky(not in coins,as my mom always says)and that they will aproove our homeloan, and that we will find a house, a backseat for one car so we can sell the other(I want a 4x4 again for all that snow) that the kids and us will have friends,a good church, furniture, safe travel,his job to go well when he transfers, and this all to come about within 60 days.....alot of prayres needed and alot of faith to stretch my own.so what point do I have about insperation today.....that someone without anyfaith can develope enough to instuct me to get some...now thats a miracle...wow lets have some faith together...look at your hands and ask God to use them this week....and see what he can use you for.....go now and inspire someone else

everything is an opertuity to learn

I am using our governments crisis ! does that sound terrible? I am a homeschool mom and my son is starting graphing in math,so what better time for the stocks to be all haywire,the garentee of a change everyday will keep the activity of line graphing interesting. isnt it funny how one persons worst nightmare becomes an oppertunity for another...and the most intriguing part is that both parts learn something.we are all educated from the good and the bad happenings in our lives. what if in everything the gray cloud really was the most fortunate thing that could happen? I mean you never know you could stub your toe and look down to find$100 bill. I am one who belives in fate, destany, karma, divine intervention. I would even go as far as saying my life was based on such odd hapenings. I am a prayer...I ask with full belife that it will happen, and faith that if it doesnt I should be happy it didnt cause it wouldve been terrible. I spend alot of time thanking God for unanswered prayres.but not enough time being gratefull for what I have...so my insperation for you today is to be glad everything thats bad is bad....you are becomming so wise from it all.

the soal inside continuance

To find the soal ,exit your mind and enter into why you exist....who's lifes does your life inadvertantly affect? what could you do to affect theses other soals more or less? what mask are you wearing?and what would it cost you to remove it and be genuine to everyone....what could you gain....ponder....sleep on this.....slowly lift your veil...let the pain in along with the good...let your eyes seep with truth and serenity

to move or not to move

never knew it was so frustrating, to leave it all up to another to aquier a home,I will be honest I want to run in the other dirrection...but idead we are attempting a move to idaho,I thought I would be spending my days on the beach, and so will be honestly disapointed. but what is the right move ? I would stay in tact though off grid yurt living ,eating sprouts and baking bread for the neighbors. but how do you get a determined medieval reinactor to see past his swords ambition....ahh my friends you don't so idaho it is,back to the crew.have you ever been in my shoes? trying to find something possitive about an unintended life change. I have become resilant....I will make a way...but my possitive is being eaten by loan rangers...how do you find your castle in all this mess?while building castles they started from the outside in...so I venture inward, into my soal,into a hole in a hedge to hide.I know my home lies elsewhere, my mansion is being held, but until then what about a house.where should my children run and learn....in search of insperation and still feeling like that lost lama

one out of every 4

the potter makes wonderful things from their clay.I recieved from a distant friend a strange gift yesterday i had put in for her to make me some wine cups,and she willingly traded them for the promice of a homade carrot cake, (a borrowed recipe of my somewhat motherin law.)so she pulls these 4 beautiful glazed creations out of her russack and tells me a bird has crapped in one out by her kiln. I quickly notice the bird crapped in the prettiest one. what a surprize gift,wisconson bird crap,personaly delivered,in some counrtys that would be good luck,so I have thought of it as a possitive thing,not just because I will have the satisfaction of serving people wine in that cup and laughing under my breath(well of corse I will wash it first). But what a wonderful way to think of things as our lord Jesus does,sometimes the prettiest soal he makes as the potter,grows up to be the filthiest. this has reminded me to get back to the possitive things,stop complaining,and laugh.

so "what would Jesus do"( to over do that saying somemore) I belive he would spit clean the cup,thatway the person has been blessed with 2 secret ingedients.but more or less he is continuely cleaning us of worse then bird poo, look at our society, the hate, the greed....what I would give to be simple clay,how bout you?

romans 9;21

wandering further

I am a wanderer ,I am 31 and am about to make my 24th move if I am not mistaken.Now they say that "not all who wander are lost"-tolken( I have seen this quote on a picture of a lama wandering Macha pitchu....I am that lama I suppose)but right now in the mist of this move I am lost,perhaps that is why I feel this overwelming since to write, being lost starts you serching for something, and I have always said my search is for insperation....and so it begins...this continuence of a life well lived to this point.

*me the lama*

I came to this idea of blogging mylife from a blog called freerangeacademy I ran across by mistake,it has this idea to make a list of life acomplishments, which I continued to do at my50.com which was an awsome site to make this list ,a bucket list, and pry into the mind of my marshmellow man. atlast some insperation,other serchers existed, galvinized ,rubberized exsplorers,ready to excead lifes great exspectations amonst all greater agrivation.